Hello everyone, long time no post! Today’s post is one about one of my most hated sentences, “but you don’t look sick”.
To look at me, here, on a good day, I’m sure many people would think in their heads that I don’t look sick. But how wrong that everyone would be.
I am anaemic, I have chronic nosebleeds, I have slight asthma and anxiety. I have a heart murmur, a leaking heart valve, I at 20 years old have had a heart attack. I have a rare illness called Anti NMDA Receptor Encephalitis, which causes seizures, memory loss, tumours and in extreme cases death. I am in chronic pain near enough every day, but yet, looking at me above in the photo, I don’t look like it. Right?
In my life, I have been to the hospital more times than I’d like to remember, been hooked up to machines that bleep at the smallest little movement you make, had many more injections than nights out and so much hospital food that I can still taste half of it.
If you saw me at my worst, would I look sick to you? Or would you just try and pin point something else that didn’t make me look “sick” enough?
Thanks for reading, sorry it’s not my usual happy post but after someone questioning me on what’s wrong with me, why am I saying I’m sick and look fine etc, I thought I’d make a little post.